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One Year

 Yes, I've been on a one year sort of hiatus. Nothing big happened but just got wrapped up in things. Will try and post more and start up again. No changes on the marriage front but some changes on the self identity. Still consider myself trans, but more of a sissy. Will go into that more.


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