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The Less Glamorous

This one may be a little of a ramble. I touched on it a tiny bit in one of my Twitter posts, but I feel I need to write some more. I know I have been stuck on the clothing side of being transgender, but my inclination is far more than cloths. I prefer pretty much all female products. They feel like they are more me and I feel they work better on me. Some of them, such as shampoo and conditioner are a whole new experiment for me. Being that I am of mixed races, adopted, and raised in small Midwest towns, I never really learned about any of it. Not that I am giving my adopted parent any fault, they raised me and loved me and I am grateful for that. It is just I don't know how to properly take care of my skin and hair. The internet and the various communities help a lot, however being trapped where I am, I cannot try all the things I want to, even going as far as keeping my Dove deodorant, razors, and any "female" skin care products hidden for fear of causing another blow u…

New Beginnings

Well I have not been around for a while. Had a long visit from the grandson and have not been able to spend anytime with my own brain lately. While I enjoy the time, as an introvert, I need some time to myself to recharge and have not had that in close to a month. My batteries have been drained and I need to recharge.

On a good note, I have finally found a new job. I am back to working for a public school district. Did it for 10 years so I know what I am jumping into. Glad to finally be back to work. I was starting to get worried as my unemployment was going to run out soon and it was causing tension with the wife. Still is as I don't get paid for a while, but at least I have a good paying job.

One advantage to the new job, it is in a town a little ways away. If I do move forward with looking at starting out on my own again and determining if I want to transition, I can move there. Apartment prices are not that bad and it is a little closer to the Twin Cities. If I don't trans…

Jobs

Still looking for a new job. Several interviews, however, none of them have panned out. I don't know what it is. I think it is one of three things, either I don't come off well in the interview which I can totally believe as I am so shy it is difficult for me to do that. Second, it could be I am old for IT work. Being 48 and doing IT work for 20 years, I am asking for a lot of money for my salary. I may have to adjust that. The third thing, my wife thinks this is the one, is that my previous employer is essentially blacklisting to potential employers. I don't tend to believe it but the longer I am out of a job, the more it creeps in to my thoughts.  I think I need to check out a couple of interview sites for ideas before my next two interviews in a couple of days. I could even hit the local state unemployment office for help, but they closed that one permanently. We will see how it goes. I am looking forward to one of them as it would be the next step in my IT career if I …

You Reap What You Sow

Sort of sucks when the policy you approve of, discriminating someone based on your personal belief, comes back and bites you in the ass.

Sarah Sanders says was thrown out Virginia restaurant

Update to the Update

Still looking for a job. Major drama/fighting going on at the home front that I will go over in a future post. Lots of things are currently in limbo and I don't know what they will lead to. Scary time for me at the moment. I thought this was going to be a better year but nope, not going to happen.

Quick Update

Well, I have been out of a job now for about a month. Still looking and had an interview but it is starting to drain me not working. I may have to start getting out of my comfort zone and hand out some business cards to get sideline work and see where that takes me. The other consequence of being unemployed is I have no means to look at moving out or beginning a transition. It is still on the table but will definitely need to be put off until I can start making real cash. Until then, I will just need to create my own plans and road map for myself and where I want to go.

I have pretty much determined that if I do get to the point of moving out, depending on my job, I will be moving a little north to the Twin Cities MN area. I have looked at other places and I think I would miss the cold winters, yeah that sounds crazy. I think the other option would be Denver but that would require a lot more that I have now. I guess living for 20+ years in Minnesota has made it hard to leave and I thi…

Path Forward

After the latest blowup at the house, I have started looking into apartments. It appears that moving out is the only way to make life a little less chaotic. I just need to come up with the initial moving funds. I really do not want to ask family for funds. I need to find some way to do this on my own. I am old enough I shouldn't need to. I think this will happen within the next 3-4 months. If I do pull this trigger, I am seriously considering the option of presenting as male at work and living as female the rest of the time. I think I would start out fairly androgynous to start to make it a little easier for me to ease into life. It might also make it a little easier on the budget to not have to buy an entire new wardrobe right away.
If I do end up moving out, which is looking to be likely, I am looking forward to trying to meet others to begin some sort of support system to help me on my path with some guidance and counsel.  I know others have been through this and would love to …